There's been a lot that has happened between me and Mom in the last 10 years. It's weird to me that it has been a decade since both of our lives changed so drastically and so differently in one night...but we're here and we seem to be on the other side of it after all those years of healing and finding ourselves.
I went through a period of time where I resented this... I did. I was angry and unhappy with the unfairness that I felt had happened to us - all of us. Mom, Dad, Jessi...especially Jessi. Me. I still have those days but over the last 4 years I have started finding that light again and she has forgiven me and pushed me to be a better person despite myself and my circumstances.
She was the drive that pushed me even when I didn't want to admit that she was the reason I kept pushing on.
Where did I get my vocabulary? Looking words up in the dictionary to beat mom on a Friday night or better yet, to impress her.
Her smile lights up my world.