So I am a few days late, and a visit with my mom behind. We didn't do much last night. I introduced her to one of my favorite shows - Newsroom and we had a great dinner at Newk's.
There's been a lot that has happened between me and Mom in the last 10 years. It's weird to me that it has been a decade since both of our lives changed so drastically and so differently in one night...but we're here and we seem to be on the other side of it after all those years of healing and finding ourselves.
What many people don't know about me or about my mom is that she instilled the love for community that I have in me. She taught me from a very young age the importance of volunteerism, good will and giving back. She encouraged me to be myself - bold, loud, smart and vivacious. She never let me hide who I was or am and when I wanted to hide she egged me to come back out - to "let my light shine" again, as she would say.
I went through a period of time where I resented this... I did. I was angry and unhappy with the unfairness that I felt had happened to us - all of us. Mom, Dad, Jessi...especially Jessi. Me. I still have those days but over the last 4 years I have started finding that light again and she has forgiven me and pushed me to be a better person despite myself and my circumstances.
She was the drive that pushed me even when I didn't want to admit that she was the reason I kept pushing on.
People often compliment me on my ability to communicate and my vocabulary. I point to Mom for this. The minute I was old enough to play strategy games, cards and word games, there she was ready for a friendly competition and sometimes an intense one. One of our favorite pastimes has always been Scrabble and while on a given night one of us may proclaim to be the best, I must say she is the most worthy opponent and challenges me to use my knoggin' continuously.
Where did I get my vocabulary? Looking words up in the dictionary to beat mom on a Friday night or better yet, to impress her.
I don't tell her enough but she's my hero - in so many ways. She's a little cooky sometimes and she makes me crazy at times, but she is my hero. She is the strongest woman I know and her smile...
Her smile lights up my world.