Today marks my last day of the long, beautiful, fun, hard decade of the 20s. Just like leaving my teens, there are so many things I have to reflect on from year 20 to 29.
Top Lessons & Things I Wish I Had Known In My 20s:
10. Progress vs Perfection: Progress is so much more important and grows you so much more than perfection. One of the top struggles of my 20s was my drive to be perfect in all the things. I wish I had been more patient with myself, and others.
9. Read: This was something I did right, I read all through my 20s from memoirs to business books to romance to science fiction/fantasy to intellectual non-fiction to poetry - I read it all. Best decision ever.
8. People change, you can't change that. People grow up, apart, away and together. The growth I have seen in my husband and my closest friends blows me away, I have never been more proud. The growth in myself, how I have changed and grown is incredible. And, to those who grew apart from me, the strength it took to adjust for both myself and them and where we are now was not bad, just different. Change made us better people, or stronger people.
7. Faith vs Religion: Gosh, this is a biggie. I am still learning these intricate lessons. I am a deeply spiritual person, it's at the core of who I am. I have faced judgement from friends, people who don't even know me - even family. In the end, my faith is in God and my heart is full of joy and love and hope and goodness. It has nothing to do with anyone else. I cling to my faith when I feel alone, when I feel afraid, when I feel loathsome and awful. I pray that a light shines through me, and I pray that I never force myself or beliefs on anyone. I believe in choices. And, I choose love.
6. Loss: Deep dark places, I have known. These times showed me unexpected strength, unexpected grace.
5. Communication: It's everything. You must take responsibility for the good - and the breakdowns.
4. Success, Ambition & Hustle: Balance it, girl. I have seen high endurance sprints and complete burnout. The balance is still a work in progress, because I go hard and sometimes, too hard. This drive of mine is a HUGE reason for being where I am at 30, but I have learned hard lessons when this becomes the main mission or goal. I have also fallen flat on my face in failure.
3. Haters: They make you better, they make you stronger, they make you kinder. Acknowledge them, take any morsel of truth they may give you, and then let them go.
2. Friendship: I have been blessed with incredible friendships over the last 10 years. Some who are constant, some who came just in time during different phases, some who were fleeting but left behind amazing memories. I have been a good friend, and I have been a terrible friend. The key to friendship is letting go of control, you cannot control people, they cannot control you. Be love, be grace, be present.
1. Confidence: Lord help me, I struggle. But, I am a strong, resilient woman. I have achieved so much in the last 10 years. I am kind, I am funny, I am beautiful. I am smart. I am amazing. May I always know this, and I wish I had known this all along.
A sad day it is to say goodbye to what has been one the most amazing experiences in my life. Made by Few started, for me, with my very best friends. Over the last four years, we have built something incredible together. But, sadly, I am parting ways.
There are far more important loves in my life right now and sometimes you have to choose.
I choose my husband. I choose time to mend my heart. I choose friends who support me in making healthy decisions for myself and my family. I choose my garden. I choose being the best person I can be despite what others think, say or believe.
I have loved meeting and doing things with every single person I have had the chance to work with over the years on this project. I have learned so much from each of you. Cheers to an incredible line up and an incredible conference this year and years to come. <3
I'm overwhelmingly thankful for incredible, supportive friends and family this week. Late Monday night, I miscarried. It was very early on but you can never be prepared for these kinds of feelings.
I am so desperately ready for this month to be over. It's sweltering outside and inside my heart. I am just so thankful for the friends who have gone out of their way to make me laugh this week and who have prayed for me. I am thankful for my incredible husband who has let me cry, be angry and feel...well...weird about the whole situation.
There's no need to say sorry, etc. I am/will be fine. But times like this I count myself so blessed to have people in my life who make me smile and bring me back out of the dark parts of my heart. You all know who you are. <3